I am a very bad blogger!

I know I haven`t posted in months and it actually makes me quite sad because of all the things that have happened or are happening in my life right now. I am now going to start blogging more with recipes and pictures and really anything else weight loss surgery related. I have been a lot more active in my WLS group and doing lots of coffee meetings with the girls rather than sitting at my computer.

Well here I am almost 1 year post op and feeling great. Some days are definitely better than others. I find that the hardest thing for me in the last few months has been dealing with my brain. The only way I can truly explain what happens to you brain after weightloss surgery is that you are mind fucked. I remember having a conversation with a girlfriend of mine this time before my surgery last year saying that if I ever got to me in a size 24 (I was in a size 34 at the time) that I would be more than happy with my journey. Well OMG could I have been anymore wrong. I actually hate what I look like now more than I hated then and I feel like a giant failure. And yes yes I know you are going to say ``Shut up how could you possibly feel this way after losing over 200lbs` but it is the craziest thing. I know I don`t always make the best choices all the time when eating but I am human and I can`t be perfect but I can admit my faults. I find that one of my biggest problems is people checking up on me. I know there is difference between people asking how I am doing and people questioning me. I feel like sometimes that some people are expecting me to fail. I know that is a horrible thing to say but I am just being honest.

Well it is getting late and I have a few other things to work on.. (did I mention that I am moving 3 and half hours away in about a week and half and I am not packed yet)

Anyways blog just know you are always on my mind

Xo PouchGirl

I will catch up

Due to a loss in my family my blog has been lacking but I will catch up soon.



-Pouch Girl

Day 1

Well today was a pretty busy day. I went and met up with 2 girls that I went to college with for lunch and caught up on life. Then I met up with my nephew and got matching tattoos done. We both got the words "it gets better" on us. Mine is located on my back and his is on his forearm. I will post a pic of mine once its healed up and not as red. Now I am sitting in bed watching Celebrity Apprentice and watching the live Oscar feed on Facebook.

Today I walked 1km, not as much as I wanted but it's a start.

My menu for today was as follows.

Breakfast
-2 slices turkey lunch meat
-1 slice havarti
-2 tbsp greek yogurt
- sliced tomatos
-1 5inch whole wheat wrap

Lunch
-1/4 chicken leg (ate half)
-3/4 cup of caeser salad

Snack
-2oz of Chicken

Dinner
-half of a Chicken burrito


 -Pouch Girl

8 week Challenge

8 weeks from tomorrow is my 28th birthday. I have recently decided that 28 has become my lucky number. I created a bucket list post op where it says "be in the 200's by my next birthday" which is in 8 weeks.

So here is the challenge. I am 58 pounds shy of my goal of being in the 200's. I am averaging between 25-35 pounds a month weight loss since my surgery and that is with little exercise.  I am going to challenge myself to see if I can amp myself through that 58 pounds. I will following all my guidelines and eating all that I am suppose to. I am going to change up my diet a little bit by only getting raw foods and avoiding all pre-packed and foods chalk full of preservatives.

The Plan
-Blog everyday or every other day
-Post what I ate
-Post the exercise I did
-Keep a running log of Km's walked
-Keep a running log of how much I've lost

Wish me luck!!

If you have any questions, comments or ideas... PLEASE SHARE!

-Pouch Girl

(quick edit) If I don't achieve this goal I will not be upset! This is just a personal goal I set up for myself. I am beyond proud of myself for everything I have done so far!

The Fate Dress

 This is the story of how fate made me spend $20 on a dress.


So about a month ago I was out shopping with my mom and I came across this blueish/purplish dress that I tried on and fell in love with but I talked myself out of. I tend to do this a lot when it comes to buying clothes. I find a way to make myself either hate or tell my myself that I will never wear it. That day I did just that, I talked myself out of it and got a black dress (yes because I always play it safe). I get home and all I can think about is that silly dress. The following week I go shopping with a friend and show them said dress that is still there on the sale rack and I don't get it. AGAIN I go back with a friend from work and show her the dress and she tells me how great I would look it in but again I talk myself out of it. Finally I can't stop thinking about it so I call up the store to see if they still have it and they don't. I am a tad bummed but not that shocked. So sad and defeated I head out to the other mall and get myself a pair of jeans (first pair post op YAY). As I get home and check my messages there is a message from the manager from the store saying they found the dress!! Of course I am over the moon and super jazzed so the next morning I call her back and ask her if she still has it. Turns out someone had bought it AND THEN returned it.

REALLY?? This like NEVER happens!

 I was sooo happy! The only thing that was different between this dress and the one that I tried on was the one that I tried on a month ago was a size bigger. Well let me just say I am happy I got the size smaller because it fits me like it was made for me.. when you really think about it IT WAS!!

So I am going to wear my fate dress to see Kelly Clarkson March 8th!

Let this be a lesson.. If you see a dress you love on sale (80% off) JUST BUY IT!!

-PouchGirl

Size really does matter.

This subject has been one that I really have wanted to post about. I do believe that people who have already had WLS will understand this and those who are going to have it here is your warning.

 No matter how much or how fast you lose weight... you mind always lags behind.

I have lost over 130 pounds and I can honestly look in the mirror and acknowledge that the weight is gone but still not actually see it as gone. It is something that is impossible to understand because I always swore I would never be that person. I remember one night at my friends house we were discussing my surgery (my friend had already had hers) and she told me that I would not see it even though it actually happened. I swore up and down I would never be that person and that I would celebrate every single milestone and be so jazzed no matter how much I lost. I mean anything was better than what I was at pre-op. Now here I am 3 and half months later staring in the mirror in drastically smaller clothes thinking "I just don't see it" I get comments from friends and family all the time telling me that I look great or that I seem to have all this life and energy in me and I don't see it. Now this isn't me trying to be modest at all, I am being honest. Your brain and body has gone through so much post op that it takes it out of you and it's hard for your eyes to catch up to your brain.

That all being said if anyone else reading this thinking to themselves "I feel the same way" You aren't the only one. I do that all the time thinking I am the only that thinks this way when really almost everyone in our situation has thought this way at one time or another.

Just make sure to remember when someone tells you that you look good/great/amazing! Take it and thank the person because let's be honest who doesn't like being told they look good! lol


Til I post again...
-Pouch Girl

So true...